So I have been deep in thought over the last couple of days, somewhat making sense of the randomness in my mind to decipher a concrete plan of the future I hope for. Being the spiritual person that I am I have been asking myself if the future I hope for is in line with what God has planned for me. I have also been beating myself over and over after realizing that I have not been trusting God enough to take me from where I am now, to where I hope (and He hopes) for me. Though I feel this way, I am feeling lighter now that I have accepted my wrongdoing in this, and I am grateful that I still have this small voice that tells me to keep pressing forward.
And now to the impossibilities....
I envision something WAY WAY bigger than Clutch Culture and Curvy Geekery. One of the things I want to do is to develop my collection towards a clothing line. Everything I have done so far has been self-taught and now I'm embarking on this journey where I'm starting to make a few sketches. But ooh child, self-doubt is a B-word. Why am I doubting myself NOW of all times? *looks at self in the mirror* "Mo you can do this!!" I keep telling myself. Yes, I KNOW I can do this, but I think I need some help! That bible verse that talks about people perishing because of lack of knowledge, applies to more than just knowledge from the Bible. This idea of mine will perish if I don't read up on it. It's almost eerie that my laptop died on me just when I was starting to settle into sketching some ideas. I guess I didn't need that distraction during the last couple of days which led me to reading up on fashion illustration and putting together a collection. The road ahead is going to be one knowledge-filled, book-piling, sleepless-nights, The Secret movie-watching ordeal.
I envision something WAY WAY bigger than Clutch Culture and Curvy Geekery. One of the things I want to do is to develop my collection towards a clothing line. Everything I have done so far has been self-taught and now I'm embarking on this journey where I'm starting to make a few sketches. But ooh child, self-doubt is a B-word. Why am I doubting myself NOW of all times? *looks at self in the mirror* "Mo you can do this!!" I keep telling myself. Yes, I KNOW I can do this, but I think I need some help! That bible verse that talks about people perishing because of lack of knowledge, applies to more than just knowledge from the Bible. This idea of mine will perish if I don't read up on it. It's almost eerie that my laptop died on me just when I was starting to settle into sketching some ideas. I guess I didn't need that distraction during the last couple of days which led me to reading up on fashion illustration and putting together a collection. The road ahead is going to be one knowledge-filled, book-piling, sleepless-nights, The Secret movie-watching ordeal.
Please focus some positivity towards me and I will do the same for you. May we all realize our dreams.
I am finding comfort in this quote I found today.
Impossibilities are merely things which we have not yet learned. -- Charles W. Chesnutt
If we do not rise to the challenge of our unique capacity to shape our lives, to seek the kinds of growth that we find individually fulfilling, then we can have no security: we will live in a world of shame, in which our selves are determined by the will of others, in which we will be constantly buffeted and increasingly isolated by the changes round us. -- Nena O'Neil
A toast, to reading and learning
Your CurvyGeek
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